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A Hostage Situation - Angel of Dissipation

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This piece took me quite awhile to do, starting with drawings on paper which were scanned before being coloured and all that in photoshop. It was marvellous fun, playing with textures as always, trying to be more traditional in the colouring, and man the eyes were fun to do haha.

It was a gift for somebody. Somebody very special to me. Somebody whom I always saw as an angel, who shed light and gave me hope. Somebody who in my darkest moments gave me strength, and pulled me back into sanity.
There were times in the past year I was very depressed, and couldn't stand the company of anybody; I couldn't stand myself, or my friends, or my family. I couldn't stand anybody but this one man. When I was with him I was still in pain, but it was a different type. One that made even less sense but made me believe that everything would somehow be ok.

Unfortunately, I'm now losing this friend. This art was promised back when we were really close, and I put my heart into making this as day by day we drifted further apart. And that hurt. Hurt because I still cared so much, but that care was no longer returned.

Finishing this was in a way the final marker. I don't even think I was thanked for this. Perhaps I was too clingy, or needy, I don't even fucking care anymore. All I know is that it's time for me to move on as best I can. I know it's no longer worth it, and in a way that's the worst part. Because it once was. It was the most beautiful and cherished thing in my life for a long time. I'm sure you can relate.

So, if for some reason you're still reading this, then I guess all I'm trying to say is that this picture is two things.
It's pure love, and it's motherfucking goodbye.
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